Saturday, July 27, 2013

On Running


There was a time in my 20s when I ran the 5k in under 20min, and six months before my Parkinson's Disease diagnosis I ran it twice at around 30min (@ age 48), but today I don't dare to run it at all anymore.

And there are 2 reasons for it:

1) I am afraid how the exhaustion would impact my slightly shaky balance as I sure would hate to fall, for pain and embarrassment reasons.

2) The mental defeat I would suffer if I can't make it! I always drive myself pretty hard and don't like to loose, even if the one who beats me is just my own inability to succeed.

But, there is also the chance that I have actually only one reason, it being the second one listed here! Meaning, maybe my worries in 1) are manufactured to protect me from 2) ever to happen.

Who knows?

Ingo